When Holiday Traditions no longer bring Comfort.

I decided to try and bake some things for Christmas this year. Last night I made a sub-par banana blueberry bread (I think the baking powder was old which shows how often I bake) and tonight I will be trying my hand at an apple pie that I already know will be nowhere close to…

Healing is Messy but so is Life.

My whole life I avoided conflict like the plague. I learned early on that even if something wasn’t my fault, I could take responsibility and apologize and everyone could move forward without fighting. I learned to brush things under the rug and move forward, even if I had been the one that got hurt. I…

Gifts for a Grieving Mother

Christmas is supposed to be a time of joy, celebration and love but for families that have lost a child, joy can be hard to find. Pregnancy and infant loss doesn’t tend to get the same level of attention as issues like breast cancer and heart disease but considering that every year in the US alone there are over…

Why Grief isn’t Always Enough

Grief encompasses our internal thoughts and feelings- the unspeakable things that haunt us on those bad days, the heaviness in our chests and the foggy and unfocused images that crowd our minds and even the sleepless nights when we stay away wondering “what if?” – but grief alone is not the path to healing.

The Little White Hearse

The Little White Hearse Somebody’s baby was buried to-day— The empty white hearse from the grave rumbled back, And the morning somehow seemed less smiling and gay As I paused on the walk while it crossed on its way, And a shadow seemed drawn o’er the sun’s golden track. Somebody’s baby was laid out to…

I Will Speak Her Name.

It was only a few weeks after the loss of our daughter that I was faced with the decision on whether or not to go back to work. I was nervous about how I would feel being back in my office and back around my co workers who, just months before, were celebrating my pregnancy. I…

Remembering Ryann

My name is Evelyn Grace. My husband and I have been married for over 4 years and this summer went through the hardest thing we have ever been through. Our daughter, Evelyn Ryann, was born early at 25 weeks gestation and due to even more complications during and after her birth, passed away after just three…

Christmas without Her

It has been just over 6 months since the loss of our first, and only, child. Not a day goes by that I do not think about her and wonder what she would be like today if she were still here. I imagine what we would be buying for her first Christmas presents, what her “baby’s…

Inner Peace after Loss

“THERE IS ONLY ONE WAY TO LEARN. IT’S THROUGH ACTION. EVERYTHING YOU NEED TO KNOW YOU HAVE LEARNED THROUGH YOUR JOURNEY.” ― PAULO COELHO, THE ALCHEMIST I am a strong believer in the idea of being a lifelong learner. I believe in taking your personal experiences and using them to learn more about yourself and…